As I wrote in an earlier blog, I am not one who likes to wait around for anything. The same goes for not just for my career but also my personal life.
I am a bigger gentelman. No, I am not the largest actor to be working out there, but I am also not going to be getting any calls at the moment for underwear modeling jobs any time soon. I know that I am in an industry where you have to find your niche, know your character, find your type. I am also lucky that I have a long line of gentelmen more on the plus side that have helped paved the way for me. Kevin Chamberlin, Josh Gad, Nathan Lane, and Zero Mostel (to name a few of the "bigger" names) have all shown that sometimes bigger is indeed better.
At the same time I really want to be able to shop at a store where they are more likely to have clothing that fits me straight off the rack rather than having to dig for the larger sizes. I currently wear a 44x32 pair of jeans (relaxed fit). Yes, it is a little roomy, and yes, I do wear a belt to ensure the pants remain where they should be.
When I am working out, I see these guys with like, 32-pack abs, pecs that could serve as a book shelf, and biceps that make one cringe with envy. I'm over there, working on core, or working on the eliptical thinking "I just want to have regularly shaped arm-pits." I did try a stint where I bought a suppliment that was supposed to "Cut belly fat. Help you shed the pounds without changing your life." This was when I learned that this mulit-billion dollar industry is filled with crap that doesn't work. Now everytime I see those adds on TV or online I look for this: *Results not typical. Reading, "Yeah, this dude dropped 1/2 his body fat in a year because he did a lot of other stuff and did our thing too."
When I searched clinically sound research, they all said the same thing. Everyone's body is different, and you have to do what works best for you. Any magic pill or diet out there might help you in the short term, but in the long term, if you want lasting changes, you need to make lasting changes.
As of next week, I will have tracked my eating and physical activity (Thanks to FitnessPal) for a year. I have steadily lost weight (though I am not sure where I am now...no scale), and kept it off....except around the holidays...but then I took it back off again.
I have come to accept that a huge life change (weight loss, starting up a career) will take time. I know that I will not be getting a call for that underwear job probably ever in my life. However, Zero, Kevin, Josh, and Nathan have all had amazing careers and will always serve as inspiration to me that I can also have a great career.
Yesterday, Anna and I had a terrific time at the New York Pro Actor's Expo! We had the opportunity to talk with some excellent industry pros, gained a wealth of knowledge, and entered for the chance to win some excellent stuff! Definitely going to be following up with several of the people we had the pleasure of meeting.
I have never been one for waiting. As nearly any member of my family will inform you, I am not the most patient of persons. I greatly prefer to have everything that I need ready to go as soon as I walk out the door. Being an actor in general has tested my limits and has forced my hand at being even more willing to wait than I would prefer.
And then I moved to New York. This is the city of "Hurry-Up and Wait." Throw that in with theatre (and being non-Equity) and this has the potential to be a dangerous recipe. However, I believe that I am beginning to "See the light," as it were, on this whole waiting game. As one who is currently on the lower-rung of the NYC-Theatrical totem pole, waiting will be something I have to get used to. Until I get my AEA card (and possibly and aigent), I will have basically no choice but to sit and wait. So, rather than moan and groan, I am going to take it in stride.
This is a pledge for what I will do from here on out. These waiting periods will not be times where I hum & ha about how long it will take. Instead, I will use these opportunities to focus on my career. I will research, write, and read. I will talk, chat, and network. I will better myself so that I get seen and hired. I will not totally waste all of my time on Facebook, Twitter, or Candy Cruch...yes I still play it, and yes I will still do these things, but not too much.
I will also maintain a positive attitude and maintain a professional air. If I am seen, not seen, cast, or rejected, I will be calm and know that that's just how it goes. I chose this crazy career. Anna and I packed up our stuff and moved out here to NYC to give it a whirl. Though a part of me dreamed of overnight success, I know that will never happen. I have to hurry up, and calmly wait.
Just got back from my first ECC audition. Downside: they were not seeing Non-Equity/EMC today. That is sad, but I will get over it. Upside: I know that I need to arrive earlier to calls!
Be sure to check out my latest headshots and show picks. And keep tabs on my awesome wife and her work: Anna Lewein!
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